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Okay soo let start off with the good things shall we?

1. I got a job at Johnny's Fresh market, so yay!

now I have
      A. Money
      B. a job that is close to college
      C. a job that doesn't require that I go around and sort people's dorm mail and care packages

2. My Grandmother just left after visiting us for a few days, she was alright ^_^

3. Mike (who just came from otacon) picked me up a mokona hat! A MOKONA HAT I've always loved/wanted one of those hat and now I'm going to get one.

4.I payed my tuition bills, and I didn't have to take out any loans, NO LOANS which means if I save up long enough at my part-time job I can maybe get an apartment! ^_^ no getting a dorm room will save me 11,500 dollars.

and now the bad stufff

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ya know I can't think of anything ^_^;

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 today
we worked on script stuff
I had my first taste of coffee
I mean
I've had watered down iceed coffee
which I didn't like
but the cholate coffe ice thing
is it
a chocolate something something
I don't know
I just know that I got super happy hyper
I was worried that nobody was going to show up and we would get nothing done
But I feel pretty happy that we got some really good ideas
we need more edits
and a hardcore fangirl to rate it
but I am very confident in it.

What I learned today

Coffee is bad for me, shouldn't drink it unless it's an emergency

I should listen to me, rather than blindly follow others

I'm such a weird person, even amongst weird people

I have a good team working with me, I really do ^_^


Summertime yay! ^_^


 

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so Sushi,Jess and I went sailing yesterday
best day ever!
at first I was afraid
because I don't know how to swim
and I've never been on a boat before.
But I was fine.
It was so nice to get away from the city.
And job searching
and college stuff
and trying to get loans.
>_<

The thought of going to college scares me.
The though of being surround be only girls
who are normal
and follow bands religiously
and say  and point in different magazines
"oh this guys is hot"
and I always nod my head even though really agree
(I only have eyes for one guy, and he's not a celebrity!)

I can't relate to normal girls
it wil be like driscoll all over again.
I kinda can't relate with mainstream girls.
I haven't been to any wild party

I can already feel the lonely isolation creep back into my bones

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I got rejected by a supermarket...informally
I main manager wouldn't even look at me
she told one of her cronies to do it (in a ugly black,pink and gold angel sweatershirt)
what a witch

this isn't even the first time
gap's preppy clond squad took one look at me and said
"we're still looking, we'll let you know if something is availible"

But starmarket was just plain "no, try again later"

Am I missing something
when I called for a job at CVS, and looking for Gull the guy who answered said
"gull not in" *click*
what makes people think they can step on us unemployed people
seriously it's just not right.
I dress nicely when seeing people
I don't call I go to see the manager
I am polite
I do everything right
what else to I need
more work experiance?
that be nice if you gave me a chance to actually work.

I'm going to try the yarn store, subway, staples and ask the Cafe nicolas people they'll consider me or not

it's probably be the or not

>_______<

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It's nice to be out of school
but it's even nicer to be planning a movie with your friends
it's a mock fangirl talk show
I got the script and everything written out
took me like two week (and a bit of critisism from people)
to get it going
and nearly perfect
only thing I need is people
.......
and money
props and a film crew
>_<
where's a cheap rent-a-crew-and-set
when you need one?

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so yeah
prom was awesome
there was the dirties dance that I have ever seen there
there was also light hearted attempts to dance.
It was fun
I went with a few of my friends
and at the after the prom party I won 
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star wars pez set
x-men movie concept art book
and comic to the fanastic four movie book
.........
wow that ALL the things I've ever wanted
ever
what ever
I ate sooooo much stuff
and danced like a bunch of crazy monkey
and just had a bunch of fun
plus
it's twelve
and I'm not even tired
^_^

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yeah I official broke my "40 day, no complaint pledge"
but I did it with a good reason(s)

A. I need to decide which college by May 1st and put my deposit down, I also need to decide if I can go live in a dorm(yay!) or live at home (boo!). That's less than two weeks, and I haven't received Simmons financial aid packages, or gotten of the wait list at Clark yet!

B. I need to get a spanihs internship. It's a lot harded than you think, (cough cough head start program cough cough Children Hispitals' Martha Elliots center cough cough cough) seriously, they don't call nack, have the wrong number, or operate in apartment basements. Not fun. I neeeeeeeeeeed one by the end of break. Not exactly what I need right now.

C. Shoe shopping. I got dragged to a Macy's one day sale for prom dress looking, but before that my mom decided to get me a dress to be a you know, "default dress" yet I think we both know that it will be my prom dress. Then I was dragged though the shoe asile. Unlike every other woman in the world, I don't like shopping for shoes. I car not for high heels, stillettos, pair upon pair of flip flop and other shoes types. Same thing with lots of hand bags, I don't like assesories all to much. But I nave to get a handbag, prefeably a "cluth" and somewhat hgih heel that go with my "default" dress. needless to say I was not amused.

D.Teachers who believe that can lecture us because were seniors and should be doing work, most of us didn't do an assignment, (honestly like 4 out of 15 people didn't do it" and she calls us "pathetic" (she's a stats teacher, and last time I check 4 out of 15 wasn't the majority of us) seriously people. We can't do work right now. We have senior papers! please be humna and stop assigning us worksheets to do in class, it's stupid! We really should even be at school right now.

E. None of my jobs have called back. That's a little depressing!

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now that I have your attention with my bizarre phase...
I can control your minds >:D
no not really.
so I've been trying to get jobs latly with my boyfriend
and I just turn apps in to barnes and nobles
the gap and party favors.

BandN responce: okay I'll put this in the box
me:(there's a box for application? aka I'm not getting this job)

the gap's responce: *takes it and flips it over and over again* 
me:(how to keep an idiot busy? flip over. how to keep and idiot busy? flip over)

party favors asks me question and says they let me know in a few days
me: that looks promising

^_^

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I kinda just survived the most miserable night ever
because firstly my boyfriends called 
and we're talking 
about the future and such
and he just has to break it to me that I might not get the scholarship
and even if I work every day of the summer for eight hours
I won't be able to to really pay any amount of tuition
but I would have a bit of "pocket change" to play around with
yeah
he called 4,000 pocket change
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stupid rich guy
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so I got really upset
and kinda told him to stop killing my sense of hope in the world.
but he said, that I might get it 
whatever
so I hang up
go to sleep
and a few hours later
like at 4:30 in the morning I think see some guy
standing out side my window
now my apartment 
used to be the basement of the apartment building
so yeah
I live in a refurbished basement
so I have high-ish windows
but anyway
being robbed twice in this same apartment
I keep my eyes open
being sleep-deprived makes me think
that by looking at the robber
I can make them go away.
every fifteen miutes theres some type of movement either
the window shade closes
or it is wide open
and keep in mind I can see far away.
so I stayed up for two hours
watched a blot that might be someone that's trying to break into my apartment
at 6:15 I fall a sleep
6:45 alarm goes off
I turn alarm off
I go back to sleep
I have the STRANGEST animated dream ever
and it's 7:15 when I wake up
I quickly got dressed
went to Z block
and felt like a zombie for the entire day